I tried to write something positive into this blog. I swear I tried. But it somehow just didn't work out. I had to wait till sinking somewhere deep again...
I don't know... I just suppose it'll be a little more difficult to get used to feeling happy than I'd expected... It's a new situation for me. A situation I can't work with, 'cause I've never had the opportunity to learn how to manage all this "happiness"... It seems to be almost impossible for someone who's always just suffered...
Unbearable lightness of being. That's quite accurate. I feel so light I can't bear it. I feel so light I'm getting heavy. My heart's getting heavy. And I'm suddenly losing the hope that I can really change. And all this fear and doubts and...
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